Chapter 5359 Nothing More Than To Fuck Me(Taboo Fuck):>Ep3
- Possessed by the power of forgiveness, a new wave of morbid curiosity crashed into me a few days after they left. I don't know why I went for another browse, but I did. This time I read dad's opening chapter in full. He seemed the slightly more nuanced place to start. I was fascinated watching his character's internal monologue fighting his demons. His attraction to me hurt him, and he was terrified of betraying his wife as he sank deeper into the depths of his desire for me. These must have been real feelings he had translated to a fictionalized version of our family. Mum was clearly both aware of and shared in his attraction to me, so perhaps the internalized guilt wasn't as strong in the real world.
- I revisited his profile each night before bed, reading another part of his story. As days and then weeks ticked by, I became engrossed in their relationship. They didn't have sex until part 14 and most parts were at least 10,000 words long. Plenty of them surpassed 20,000. The slow burn was ridiculous. I stopped before the sex the first time, but returned the next night. It was so satisfying after all that reading. I needed the emotional release. I believed the love the characters had for each other. It was like I understood my dad more than ever. But it was still weird!
- It took some courage to return to mum's work after the sanctity of dad's vanilla love story, but as my intrigue grew I just couldn't help myself. I was becoming captivated. I quickly became aware of the differences in their styles. Dad wrote about love, and mum wrote about lust.